back home from backpacking

Sitting in my apartment at my computer this morning for the first time in months. The usual flannel & undies, cold legs, wondering when the heater will turn on. Making lists in my head of what to accomplish for the day, seeking both inspiration and distraction. Hungry, but procrastinate breakfast for the amusements of the internet. I’m a creature of routine. It’s good to be home from a really intense experience, back to the comforts of my routines. The comforts of 8am quiet before the streets fill up with people or relaxing on my bed when the afternoon sun bathes it.

I think this trip that I took to Europe was really positive for me. It was a historically dense lineup of countries and there was a lot to take in.

Mostly though, I learned a lot about myself and what kinds of things I need to feel fulfilled in my life. The conditions of Europe were new to me: new countries, taking in a lot at a time, meanwhile having no privacy or alone time. I am a solitary person despite my ability to be a social butterfly. My preference for having a lot of privacy has manifest itself over time. While it was kind of challenging for me, the abrupt move out of this routine did pose it’s own fertile ground for a lot of reflection.

I thought about the various things I could see myself doing in the future and how I might feel about that decision at the end of my life. I thought a lot about my relationships back home with every person that’s close to me. What it looks like, what I wish it to look like, what kind of work I need to put into them. I worry about my family and how the dynamics have changed since I moved out. Each person in my family is facing real challenges in their life right now. I am in a romantic relationship that means a lot to me. It’s hard for me to express how I feel about it, but it’s significant enough to have some effect on all areas of my life at the moment.

I’m excited for “life after college” to begin, but I already miss being a student. I think I will be working soon. I am working out an arrangement with an esteemed sex health service provider, which could potentially mean the chance to strengthen sex+ with my work. That will probably become more clear over the next month. I am also sitting on the board of directors for ACLU NorCal, which so far shows a strong likelihood to be a stimulating position that I will learn a lot from.

Speaking of sex+,I am taking a break from sex+ until September. I have a lot to digest mentally for now and it’s been over a year since I took a real break from weekly videos. I am excited to be back in a place where I can spend more time my videos. YouTube will play pseudo-job until all the loose ends of present work plans are tied.

How was your summer, team green? Did you learn anything interesting?


xx

392 thoughts on “back home from backpacking

  1. Sometimes we all need a break. I hope you enjoyed your trip and have a nice break :)
    Also, good luck with any potential work. A lot of people do not know what to do after finishing college/university.

    I spent most of my summer helping my mum look after my sisters and now I am revising for exams. Not quite the same exciting summer as you, but at times tranquil.

  2. Well, it sounds like you had a really good time. Not just fun, but good. And after traveling so much while keeping you’re channel up, I can totally see what you want a break. :P

    I’d sat my summer was alright. I’ve mostly just spent it on tumblr.
    I SWEAR that’s more productive than it sounds. :P

  3. Very well written thoughts and wow what an experience! I love seeing people excited about the future it gets me all excited too! Welcome back. The first couple months of my summer were almost polar opposite. My work isolated me quite a bit, which is normal for what I do. Even the most introverted types need people though, so I was forced to become more of a social butterfly myself (in my own way). It felt good I have to admit. People are exhausting but it’s usually worth it.

  4. Welcome home.
    Sounds like you had a great time.
    We learned quite a bit over the summer. We started asking guest vloggers to submit vlogs speaking about sexuality. The response has been amazing. What we learned is that we could create a place where people could turn for many views and thoughts about sexuality.
    Thanks for all of your help getting us going with our YouTube.

    The SexualFuturist Crew.

  5. I hope you had a good time in my time zone.

    During the summer I’ve learned that i can survive on a tiny budget and that i can charm the heck out of almost anyone. :P

  6. Glad you enjoyed your trip, and that is was enlightening for you.

    Most of my summer was taken by work, but I’ve begun to notice that I tend to try and grab at strings that aren’t there, or much too far out of my reach, if that makes sense.

  7. I learned that I still have so much to learn about myself, but what I already know, it’s that to feel good about myself, I need to exercise and eat healthy, keep practicing french, get involved in things that interest me; animals, french, photos, dance…etc….don’t just go with the flow…make things happen!

  8. I guess I didn’t learn a lot, but I went through quite a bit that really changed my outlook on certain things. (life, friendship, trust, etc.) And I just recently got a job! Which, for a 15-year-old like myself, will be quite the learning experience!

  9. I had a lot on my plate this summer. Had a scholarship at NASA for 2 weeks, then a Chorus tour in Cuba for cultural exchange, then I had band camp and chorus camp and a trip to New England for a family reunion and college touring [still a 15-year-old Sophomore]. It’s intimidating when much is expected of you at such a young age, but I think the most important thing I learned this summer is to enjoy life. It’s great to be planning for the future but you always have to stop yourself and just soak in the moment before it passes. That for me has been really important to stress for myself. Nice to hear everyone else’s summer went well ^-^

  10. i learned a lot this summer about myself through old and new relationships, i`v really learned i cant change my life just to please one or two people, i`v to be true to myself and just be me and people have to accept that, i`m starting collage now so that will be a new exciting experience, glad to hear everyone else had a good summer too :)

  11. thanks for all the help you give to others, taking a break is a good idea and will give you time to reflect and gain some focus on future plans. My summer was a nice one and I learned that sharing experiences together with others is a really good way to learn about others and yourself.

  12. Laciii.. I miss you :(
    (Yes I’m an impatient prick for putting such pressure on her ’cause she’s still recovering from the adventure that is europe buuuut..)

  13. We just flew from Istanbul to Kayseri. this is a province where you land for Cappadocia. Upon arrival one guy meet us at airport then we transferred to Cappadocia, after check in procedure our guide came to meet with us then we start to first day tour .First visit Devrent Valley to see the unique fairy-chimneys,open-air museum , Monk valley ,rock-cut churches and Christian settlements which date back hundreds of years. By the way Turkish meals are fantastic http://www.privatetoursinistanbul.com after tour we just lay to our bed down. Second day begin with baloon tour ( at about 05:30 a.m ), First we were in group who were excited and hesitant about ballooning. Our pilot was wonderful, he was very careful, knowledgably and informed about geography. I could easily to say that this is very different to see fairy chimneys from air rather than ground. Also second day was magnificent, too. After tour we get back where to begin. I assume that I could tell my dream, if you have a change I suggest you to see Cappadocia especially with this company. They are very kind and very successful also every time genial. would highly recommend

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